Friday, December 30, 2005

Life... Or Nothing Like It

Today's the day the little lady returns and by all accounts I should be happy.
While I am glad she is on her way home, I can't help noticing this sense of stress that is milling about my body, and I don't like it one bit.
It could be a lack of sleep (I received a mere five hours again), but it could be the stress of reaquainiting ourselves to life as we have come to know it; Catching up on the past week; Verbally passing on stored thoughts and angst. I don't know. I don't want to analyze it too much for fear of throwing myself into an emotional tailspin.
That said...
I took another journey around the outter loop of town today, Starbucks in hand and music in tow, and found myself at Changing Hands Bookstore. Nice. I love going there, although it doesn't happen that much. It's just a great new and used shop filled with fun people and affordable reading. Like the person behind me in line said: "I could spend all day in [there] and be completely enthralled." I couldn't agree more. I would like to add however, that a pocket full of cash would be nice seeing how there are far too many great books to choose from.
But I digress...
I am really trying to focus on myself right now. I am trying to turn the tide on my way of thinking, leave this past year behind me, and move into a much better mental space. I don't want to live in its house any longer. I can't. I simply can't. It WILL KILL ME if I continue to. And although I am ready to move on in this life, I would much rather prefer that it happen as a result of natural causes than by my own hand.

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